Thursday, 19 January 2012

A New Year

Hwan and Reg
After Maui I was back in Toronto by Thursday morning before the end of the year, the dim dark morning, returning to a cat-less apartment. My memories of sunny beaches and bright skies were not enough to shield me from the horrors, the disappointment of returning to work. Is this really what I'm doing, I wondered.

Friday night I went out drinking with Reg and some of his friends, who wanted to watch some UFC. The pints led to more pints, and by the end I found myself shooting pool and singing karaoke. So I guess 2011 still had a few kicks left in it. New Year's eve I did it all over again at Olga's place, with her friends. The Sunday following I went to my parent's house, way up in the northern reaches of Richmond Hill for belated birthday stuff (my father's); food, TV, with some gift exchange.
Mimi is well

That first week of January I took in a couple documentaries, Waking the Green Tiger and Slaughter Nick for President. The former is about China's grassroots green movement, and how it has worked to prevent some hydro dams from being built. An informative documentary, it opened my eyes to how things aren't what I'd perceived them to be in China. Really interesting stuff. The second (a preview) follows a little-known Canadian actor who travels to Serbia to try to understand why one of his short-lived television shows is so popular there. A cute story, one of those peculiar cultural features that emerges from a tumultuous time.

Saturday David and I recorded our tenth episode of The Dave and Hwan Show, and I didn't suffer a debilitating brain aneurysm in this one like I did in e9. While perhaps not our funniest episode, I found myself really enjoying it. I guess it's one of those positive things that I get a kick out of, even if I'm a bit embarrassed to show it to anyone.

Robby and Billy G
Let's see now.. oh yeah, Sunday the 8th I was back at the parent's house, this time for my birthday. And another cake. And big meal. And TV. January is just a month of eating and staying in. I do mean to wake up early and work out but it just never happens that way. I have been pushing myself, and will continue to do so, to be more active in life, and consequently to play less video games. It hurts me to think how little I've accomplished.

Oh hey, I saw William Gibson give an interview (with Robert J. Sawyer) over at the Toronto Reference Library! That was cool. I mean, I went in slightly concerned that I wouldn't be able to follow what was going on, since I wasn't that familiar with his recent work (in particular, the non-fiction he was promoting), but the discussion was easy to follow. He even talked about Neuromancer, joy.

Wednesday, 11 January 2012

Maui and back again

I returned a couple days before New Year's day, deprived of sleep but still basking in the memories of Maui. What follows are my notes while there, and my observations that have since emerged, so please excuse the switching of tense.

Day one: Denver was an easy enough flight, and the one to LAX was just as uneventful -- had a sandwich and juice in the terminal, briefly tempted by the greasy wares of McDonald's. It's funny that the place always brings Doris to mind, due to the disgust it invokes.

I am glad to be offline, without the distraction, to really be unavailable to the cares of the daily grind and the holidays. It was a combination of work, life and Christmas that drove me out here, an escape from choices.

I'd forgotten how maddeningly loud it is inside the plane, a constantly surging white noise, clouding my attempts at concentration and knocking me into dozing. There's a 5 hour time difference between Hawaii and Toronto -- I wonder how I will manage.

It seems that we are not to be served a meal, which is a pity as I take a certain, perhaps peculiar, delight in prepared meals. Something about the compartmentalisation, the miniaturising, of food appeals to me.

I'd neglected to note it anywhere (I think) but on the flight to Vegas I sat beside a salesman for Josten's, the portraiture company. He was an ex-CFL player, which I thought neat.

It might be folly to recall dim memories when suffering from a lack of sleep, but I remember having a dream about a woman with deep sky blue eyes.

I brought Carl Sagan's The Demon-Haunted World as my reading material. I am already an atheist and, I like to think, a practising skeptic, so reading the book is more for me to see how great a book it really is, rather than to have it influence my opinions or character. Though it may yet do that.

It is interesting to think of the world in 1996, the year the book was released : I was between my second and third year of university, and my mind was closed to anything outside of school, computers and women. I believe that I was working in Ottawa, for the National Research Council, a fun work term. But indeed, I was a credulous agnostic, willing to delve into the spiritual and mystical. What effect would Sagan's words have had on me then? Could I have digested and grown? Hard to say.

Back at TAM9, I had an interesting chat with the cab driver, who apparently believed in UFOs and cover-ups and the like. And since then I've anecdotally heard and read of similar accounts; drivers discussing their belief in flim-flam with a skeptical passenger. I suppose the taxi experience is a fertile ground for such a thing, being such a common activity and allowing people of different worlds to interact.

My flight to Maui was early, so I had some time before meeting up with Kendrick and Gina and their son Magnus. I was struck by the humid air, the airiness of the airport's buildings. We shared a late dinner at a nearby Tiki-themed restaurant, a chance meal as my inquiry at the airport's information desk provided no suggestions.


Due to the last-minute nature of my travel plans, I did not get an accommodation near my friends -- I was staying some 15 minutes north, near the hotel where the wedding ceremony was to take place. And as I did not rent a car, I was even more isolated -- I depended on rides, and the local bus route.

Day two: On the bus, I noted the family-focused advertising, as well as some environmental awareness ones. Apparently they have two different varieties of fire ants here(!).

Without a plan, Kendrick and I leisurely drove halfway along the road to Hana. We tried some of the local fruit, and the banana I had had an incredibly intense flavor, like a sweetened gum or cake. The road itself was quite arduous -- densely packed with tight turns and single lanes for both directions, it made for some exciting driving. But amazing, simply awesome views, we like ants on a verdant fractal cliff.

That evening we ate at another small family restaurant, plates of fresh fish and large bottles of beer. I had begun to enjoy myself, and to forget my troubles back in Toronto.

Day three: I checked out the local grocery store, with its thinly stocked shelves, dusty in places. I refrained from indulging too greatly in snacks, returning in time to get picked up by Hoi for our sailing excursion to Lanai, fair island with a sad history. The boat ride was superlative -- bright and warm, with dolphins and whales sighted over and over. On the island I participated in snuba, swimming with a tether to a canister of air on a raft, allowing one to dive fairly deeply. Just off the beach one could see coral and many varieties of fish, like swimming in a screensaver.

That night we joined up with the Seto clan for dinner, then to an early sleep.

Day four: An early rise, picked up for a trip up Haleakala, taking in the majestic views from the top, peering across the volcano and the clouds rolling about it. We were some 10,000 ft above sea level, the air brisk and chilling. How long would I hold this memory, I wondered? And in so doing a flood of others rushed in, pulling at my heart. Would these new experiences help me heal?

The ride down was done at a very leisurely pace, and I noted the marked change in temperature as we descended. On the stop for lunch one of our guides collected some chameleons that were otherwise hanging out in the trees and bushes.

With much of the day still available after Haleakala, Hoi drove us to some museum that used to be a schoolhouse and later an office for a sugarcane business. Bought some souvenirs, petted a cat. Then to Iao valley or some such, with roosters but no active waterfall. It seems that Hawaii, or at least Maui, is this natural wonder playground, cleanly paved so that we mammals can, from the luxury of a car or a railed path, can take it in without inconvenience. Not that I'm exactly well-travelled but that's how it seemed to me.


For dinner we tried the traditional fare from Aloha Mixed Plate, a restaurant in Lahaina -- pulled pork, poi, seafood salsa, macaroni salad, rice. I found most of the food to be fresh and simple, with seasoning limited to salt and pepper.

In the evening we hung out with the Lius and listened to their father's stories, drinking Black Label.

Day five: Slept in late, found out I that I'd missed all surf lessons for the day. I had thought of renting a board in Lahaina, but ended up getting a bicycle from the store adjoining my motel. It was a rather sad mountain bike with a terrible seat and barely usable gears. Rode through the ritzy area, getting a very sore ass from the seat. Explored much of the tourist area, and though I'd seen cyclists on days before I encountered naught, probably due to the rain, this being the only really rainy day of my stay.

For lunch I tried the fish taco plate from Maui Tacos, which seemed little better than fast food fare. But as with other places the fish itself was tasty.

I forget what dinner was this day! It's very likely that it was a second meal with the Setos, but I'm disappointed that I don't recall for sure.


Day six: Got out of bed around 9, broke fast, Skype'd my parents and wished them a merry Christmas. Rode the rental bike up the ranch trail I looked up on Google Maps, noting the "No Trespassers" signs. Surreptitiously then up the brown red dirt and mud trail, half-expecting a vehicle chasing me down. I made it a fair ways up, and the only activity was some field construction some distance away. The ride down was bumpy enough, and I didn't notice my missing water bottle until after I stopped to eat.

On a bicycle food choices were scarce, and so I found myself having some McDonald's, observing the other tourists and locals.

That evening the clans got together for a BBQ to which I was kindly invited, and gorged on a variety of flamed meats. The BBQ turned into a picnic of sorts as the feast was followed with frisbee and tennis.


Day seven: Surfing lessons, finally. I'd waited so long to try, it seems. The beginner's area was crowded with students, with some minor mishaps -- I can see why surfers don't want to share their secret spots. I can also see why they are so buff -- the act of swimming out to meet the waves is a great arm, shoulder and core workout! A summer of surfing, ah that would be quite the thing.

Met up with Kendrick and Gina for some shopping, so I got to check out the mall. In the food court I had a spam musubi, which I was surprised to find was really quite delicious. Surfing and spam musubi, two treasures I'd like to meet again.

Today was to be Jenning's second day of bachelor festivities (his first being some time ago in Toronto), and the day activity was a snorkeling trip to a coral garden, a blustery but otherwise fine weather for it. I think the pictures pretty much speak for themselves -- we had a blast! Indeed, there was plenty of fish to keep one's attention, and we had fun with the rented camera.

Dinner was Ruth Chris' Steakhouse, a hefty, beefy meal. Kendrick hired some hula dancers to surprise everyone, and they taught Jenning a move or two. We dragged Jenning out for drinks, but the evening was short, the bars all but empty on a Monday after Christmas.

Day eight: The wedding! After helping look after Magnus, I was put on webcam duty, a task made doubly stressful when the WiFi began to fail right as the actual vows were taking place. Oh well, it was a lovely ceremony and I am happy for them. And after all the stress of deciding whether or not to come, and the moaning over the costs, I am truly glad to have attended.

How could I not be? Maui was beautiful, and I drank deeply from its riches. I was allowed to forget my troubles for a while, a living dream, beyond the cares of daily life.

And now I'm back, attempting to carry that momentum of energy and zest forward. We shall see.

Tuesday, 20 December 2011

Escape!

Hola! Or, perhaps an "aloha" would be more accurate? I am leaving for Maui in a couple hours, having decided to join Jenning's marital festivities after all. A rash decision, made in a fit of desperation, and one that certainly bites on a financial level. It's amusing that even at my age I still have problems sleeping, with the foolish fear of missing the flight. Well, I did miss one major flight, back in Denmark, but that was a simple mistake of dates on my part.

Anyway, yeah, Hawaii. I keep thinking of how this might be the last few days of my life -- fall into a volcano, or eaten by a shark, etc. It was a nice life, though I am sorry to leave so many days half-lived. More sorry to those I was a dastardly bastard to, a cowardly scoundrel. I don't know that I deserve anything like forgiveness, but I certainly feel that I am wiser now, eyes more open to my actions.

Should I happen to make it, I'll be back by the 29th. No plans for New Years. Not that I really need one, or strongly feel the need to have one. We'll see.

Oh, December.. yeah a month of work stress and little else. LiveGreen had its little party. I guess the highlight was a visit by Krista, and having a lively dinner at Rodney's Oyster House, followed by the even livelier play Ride the Cyclone. Described as the "anti-Glee", it was pretty fantastic. I'd suggest you see it if it weren't already over, which is a damn shame.

Christopher Hitchens died! The weight of his loss is greatly felt by this atheist. I saw him debate once, a small affair at UW, and him having to video his side in, but one still got the impression of what a giant of among men he was, of his intellect, of his eloquence. I am glad to have had that, at least.

Tuesday, 6 December 2011

November, and nearly caught up

I had considered applying to be a writer for blogTO.com, and it was the process of drafting up an application that I decided that I'd be much happier bringing hwan.com back to life. And so here it is, fresh and clean and much of the weight gone! Fret not, I do plan on bringing those entries back, perhaps when I've the time over the Christmas break.

Let's see.. back on the 11th I went to see Unter Kontrolle (2011), an amazingly detailed documentary on Germany's declining nuclear power plants. I was thrilled to get some rare views into how the plants worked, both as a facility and a business. It was followed up by a brief panel discussion, which to my amusement featured some rather anti-nuclear rallying. I was glad to see that the director himself seemed to not pass any judgment on the technology, or those who saw it as a safe and reasonable energy source.

On the 12th I went to a large potluck turkey dinner with Andrea's and Marc's friends. I brought some crudités and dip, which seems meager but they had quite a lot of food on hand -- two turkeys, some lamb, and all the other usual fixings, and a choice of desserts. An easy evening.

November saw me finally getting around to finishing the Deadwood series, and my, I was warned about being disappointed and indeed it was a limp ending. Such a beautifully sculpted show, such entertaining characters! I shall miss it. Here's a sampling of its wit:
  • "Such acid scrutiny from former boon companions."
  • "Augment of cupidity in the iris, a healthy augury."
  • "I am imagining the pool that spawned you."
  • "...I have no gossamer filament of doubt you have skills to delight and amaze."
  • "Fuck you sir, who would prevent expedition of one's life's disarray."
The 18th was the Gourmet Food & Wine Show, which turned out to be an excuse for middle-aged suburbanites to drink and flirt and not buy much of anything other than more drinks. I did get to try a handful of tasty treats (the sliced pork duck from Brassaii stands out in my mind), but all the peacockery detracted much.

The next day was Jenning's stag party! A full day of video gaming, go-karting (definitely the highlight), eating in a cabaret-style resto-bar (!), and board gaming. The go-karting was had at good ole Formula Kartways, starting with some time trials, then some fastest group/slowest group races. The final endurance partners race was great fun, and everyone got into the whole switching-drivers-in-the-pit aspect. Like my previous times there I incurred some choice bruises on my back from the seat but they were well worth it. I had forgotten about all the gasoline fumes though, fugh!
 
And yes, in answer to your question, Jenning is getting married, in Hawaii of all places! I regrettably will not be there, though sorely tempted. My reason for not going is entirely (or mostly entirely) monetary -- I don't really have $3k+ to throw around. Still, traveling alone is something I've not done enough of, and I hope to amend that soon.

Saturday, 26 November 2011

continuing the beginning


  Back on the 4th of November Loopy and I went to a Penn and Teller show at Casinorama, which is located just outside of Orillia. The drive up was a bittersweet one, for I'd been up Highway 400 and 11 many times with Monica on one of our trips to her cottage in Bala. Hmm. In any case, the show was great, quite the joy. Any perceived misses were overshadowed by the awesomeness of the hits.

 I also lost some money at poker and ate some shitty casino food, but that is neither here nor there; it was a fun Friday. The Saturday following I met up with Loopy again and we hung out at Ryan's place, who is an immaculate host and so much fun was had there too. The preceding dinner at Shoeless Joe's was adequate, though I really must stop subjecting myself to such lazy and uncaring eateries.

 I'm uncertain about going again but I thought I'd mention that I went to a Toronto Youth Food Policy Council meeting. I was invited by my friend Andrea, and it's more her thing/age bracket, but I enjoyed myself despite having to talk and socialize in front of a large group of strangers, reminding me of how painfully shy I can be. I would probably not make a good spy.

 This is a quick update, with much more to follow. I will also look into importing all of my old entries. Unfortunately, the comments will likely be lost, like tears in the rain.

Friday, 18 November 2011

a (new) beginning is a very delicate time

Yiss, yiss, it is I, Hwan. In a new form, newly formed. I've decided to do away with my personal server and host hwan.com on blogspot.com. Things are such that it seems silly to build and maintain everything myself; it was fun for a while, but it's painfully obvious that I simply have neither the time nor inclination to keep it up. So, here we are. And here I hope to update far more frequently. I've begun to feel that my passage through this world will leave no mark, no legacy, other than perhaps this journal, this written account of my take on things, this tiny bubble in a much larger sea.

But.. there is still a little marrow left in this bone I've been given. In any case, I'll now recount some of the things I've done since I last wrote, way back on October 9th.

I spent much of October watching Peep Show in its entirety, 7 seasons of hilarious British comedy. It was a feat made easy due to its availability on YouTube and a digestible 20 minute playtime. Think Seinfeld mixed with The Odd Couple, with a geek for Jerry and a hipster doofus for Kramer. I laughed and paused, laughed and paused, it's that good.

Did I mention that Loopy and I have begun a podcast? It's true: The Dave and Hwan Show has so far recorded eight episodes, each slightly more delicious than the last. They're a joy to make, though one does need to be able to stomach the ramblings of two drunk, somewhat antagonistic friends. There isn't much of a theme or point, I suppose, other than it's something to do and create.

I saw The Thing (2011), the prequel to the 1983 John Carpenter version. It was.. ok. I don't recommend it, but it wasn't awful either. It's kind of hard to rate because it's so similar to the original. I mean it's possible that people who see this prequel might get the same out of it as I did with the original, which was a blast. So, if you have no idea what The Thing is and are up for a horror film, this might fit the bill? O.K., a grudging recommendation, under extenuating circumstances.

Occupy Toronto, before the Bay Street march
Oh yeah, I visited (and marched with) the Occupy Toronto group, over in St. James park, which is just down the street from me. So I guess I protested in convenience, no tent necessary. Certainly I support them in a general sense, but they're a rather varied group and there are parts that detract. Overall I wish them all the best, I really do.

On the 22nd I went with some friends to the Toronto Underground Market, where one can sample food from selected cooks, on the cheap, generally $5 portions. There were a lot of people in line for fish tacos. It's hard to recall what my favourite was; probably the pasta balls, whose name escapes me now. It was nice to try once, but the crowds detract from the experience -- rarely am I in the mood to line up to eat.

I went to a Ugly Sweater Singles Party! It was lots of fun -- everyone knew the score and so was sociable and approachable. I would definitely go again, if the occasion arises. They had an icebreaker game based on Bingo, making it crazy easy to talk to people, even for shy fellows like me. I still glow from the experience.

Ok, that's enough for today. November to follow!